Help me

 I failed. I was arrogant, spoiled and a nasty piece of work. It's been so many years but i still can't stop thinking about Jean. Jean who was bubbly, Jean who cried when her boyfriend passed, Jean who hurt herself when she got hurt...oh Jean I've learnt so much about myself through you and received so much strength from you...I want to move on but I can't. I don't know how to.

She's married now with ZiChao, they're happy together. They spend holidays together, have the perfect couple pictures and she wears clothes to show off a relationship to others. He dresses sharply and is always oh so patient with her. The perfect romance that i wanted. I wished to be perfect once, to have the perfect grades, the perfect kindness just for her...whatever that actually meant. I was just emulating what she thought of Andre and I just never spent time with her. I was selfish, stupid annoying prick and I deserve what I got. She made me happy and I regret ever showing up in her life.

Please end me, I don't want this nightmare to continue.

Revival of blog

Yea Ryou's back! and this time i'm gonna do a makeover on this boring peace of trash!...so many things to do...whatta a headache...but first an update of the previous months!

-September: I'm finally promoted to a student councillor!!!(not sure what they do though, but i think its like being a prefect...)

-October: I see everyone scting as though they can beat me in exams this round...haha we'll see about that!

-October 20th>>: well the results came out and they're not pretty...was beaten by Genevive who got 4th place in school...i gotta try harder or i'll never beat Andre or enter Victoria by sec 3...

-November: School books just came out...sigh party's over...time to study again...-November 2nd: Found out someone plays maple!!!-_- decided to join Jeano for once-it was actually kinda fun! But her idiot boyfriend keeps becoming jealous and thinks i'm stealing her kills...haha(noticed they don't use the word darling infront of each other...maybe they're bluffing?)

-November 6th: i regained my passion for piano! haha this is great!and so thats it for now, hope to keep bloggin for the fun of it! Found out that Jeano's maple bf is really her maple bro aka friend....Just as i suspected...

EHLO :DDDDDDD

JEANO. IS HERE

TO ADD SOME

COLORS

TO RYANO BLOGG .

llolx .

his password so damn de

bloody long .

hmph .

gtg .

buhbyes -

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

New songs

Its been ages since i last visited this place...sigh, forgot how plain this was...anyway, i finally have the Song :"what i've done " by linkin park ^^ its so cool!! Only "in the end" left to collect and i'll be contented to move on the other albums...hmmm "heard that sound" by MxPx and "Lazy Generation " by FUps is also good...ha ha it'll still be some time till i learn how to change the skin though...

picture name changed

For all those out there that noticed the name for the blue stormy pic. is diff, congrats, it is. Thanks to some idiot who kept pestering me about the name, i decided to change it to relieve myself of these headaches. Man, why isn't anyone else coming to see my blog?! Although, the first one to see it was actually Jean...

Still under construction

Its finally getting crowded around here :) its actually kinda easy to do this !!! *sigh *school just started...so stressed oh yea for all those anime lovers out there, post what anime you wanna see on my cbox, i'll upload it from there :)

under construction

well this blog is still under construction so yea, don't judge it yet